Even though this is my main website, I don’t spend much of my time posting here anymore. I admit, I’ve been suffering from both a lack of inspiration for what to do with a website that has achieved its purpose, but not its potential.

Sharpsweetbella.com was the invention of a broken goddess trying to reclaim herself after trauma. I’ve been so open and honest here, but also guarded. Keeping one eye open at all times, expecting knives at my back anytime I get more than 100 readers in a month. Unswayed by the conventional advice on how to “make a blog successful” the goal of this space was never to do anything big or make any waves, but to exist in the lonely island of my healing, sending occasional blips on the radar of those I left behind to let you know I still live.

And live I do. In fact, 2024 was so full of blessed new life that I’ve become more focused on my calling. Especially since October, I’ve poured a lot of myself into the structural work of community building to support my big, basic income dreaming. I’ve been so focused on enacting the vision that I’ve sacrificed words in favor of ensuring a good foundation.

That renewed focus requires a more streamlined and cohesive presence. I am on so many social media platforms these days that no one version is the same as the last, no hope of consistent cross-posting across them all (BlueSky, Threads, Facebook, Substack, YouTube, TikTok…I’m sure I forgot something) in addition to a Patreon, an OnlyFans (don’t get too excited, it’s very low on my priority list) and now a growing email list, the need to streamline my time is now at a critical juncture. But even more than that, protecting where I project my energy is of the utmost importance right now.

You will notice, for example, that I stopped posting the Messages of Divine Love on this site. I have chosen those posts to remain primarily on Substack or Patreon. It’s been administratively burdensome to have so many places to post – I need to practice what I preach and delineate what is needed and what isn’t.

Feedback appreciated

Whether you are a familiar visitor to this site or this is your first time here, checking me out before you take one of my classes, I would love your feedback. Of the things that you expect to find here – what more would you like to see? What content do you find yourself asking for but never finding?

The current lay of the land

I am still often too laden with perfectionism, opting to stay silent instead of post the inevitable mistakes I’ll have to correct later. Or my executive functioning has run out but the end of the day after the constant interruptions and squeaky wheels that distract my brain. Either way, there is little to show for all the thought I pour into what I really want to say. But concerns have lingered inhibiting my voice as much as my attention.

At one point I would have dismissed the concerns I have to simple paranoia from a traumatized heart. But Project 2025 made it clear that they not only want to target anyone who is “deviant” from the cis, heterosexual, monogamous norm, but that they’re willing to trample over free speech to do it. Given all that we have seen transpire these past 50 days, my commitment is to offer an umbrella in the storm to make it easier to serve as shelter for each other.

Because I have always been someone who commands from a space of vulnerability and sensitivity, I care about people being seen…but I can’t do that if I’m hiding myself. It’s taken me nearly fifteen years, but to make sharpsweetbella synonymous with Janet Rose was a HUGE leap for me. But sometimes the reverberations of how big that is end up shutting me down making follow-through impossible.

So I ask for your support as I transform this website, my social media presence, and revenue streams into something that builds bridges of understanding and a structure of interconnected hope to lift us all up together.

If you haven’t already, sign up for the next Spark the Heart Network meeting on March 19th. Spark the Heart is a peer support network for heart-centered healers, leaders and activists. Let’s share our challenges & successes to keep each other afloat in the midst of all this change.