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Some of my favorite photos of myself through the years: Top left: 7/2007 - webcam photo of me while I was in training in Florida for a job (one of my favorites) Top right: 9/2011 -ish? Photo by @brokenglassfoto - another favorite photo he’s taken of me in between #Bellydance performances Bottom right: Renaissance Festival roughly summer 2013? Bottom Center: same training from 2007. Bottom right: 2012 at a hafla with my dance partner’’s (@zelv_art) sock monkey.From my day at #renfestcolorado a couple of weeks ago. I love coming here every summer with my kid and occasionally even on my own. 💙As found on Tumblr. Pretty much describes the feedback I’ve been given about dating me.I have spent most of my life fearing what others think of me, fearing the consequences of those impressions, solidified into distorted judgments by whatever broke filter they’re viewing me through. The past several years has been a very slow and arduous untangling of those influences in my life. It’s been a lot of heavy lifting and deep soul searching to not only identify when it’s my anxiety reacting, but to name the Thoughts, feelings and emotions driving those reactions. It’s been hard, but I’ve made significant progress in the past year simply no longer giving a fuck about what others think. Others haven’t seen what I have, don’t have my same heart, don’t have my same path - so everything they see is through their own filters & lenses - the more they know & love me, the more accurately they can view me. But this month I’m releasing the anticipated guilt I feel over living my life according to my own terms. This month I am releasing the need to please everyone or anyone. #QueenThanks, Timehop. I just don’t know who I was missing a year ago today. #polyamoryproblemsThe past few weeks have been emotional and draining. A last gasp of the sadness, grief, shame and guilt that have held me back for too damn long. A lot of tears have been shed, a lot of purging of the hurt and pain. Room for healing. And tonight when I saw a reminder of my past, there was room for me to notice it and step past it, acknowledging it here for its lack of emotional power on me. That phase of my life is over and a new one has begun. No regrets because everything I’ve encountered and helped me grow beyond who I ever dreamed I could be. This weekend is the anniversary of my calling - and I renew my vows to serve as the hands of the divine with revived faith and infinite hope. There has been a purpose to this all and I embrace my new path. ♥️✨💙✨💖✨A Loose Woman Speaks
You know me. You always find me at the crossroads. Smoldering sweetness. Transient memory. Dark benevolence.
I have burned with you in the fires; I have resurrected you from the despair. I've held your hand in the depths of your darkness. I've given you light to lift you. I've been here each time you've prayed out loud or cried silently.
Sweet and bold. Powerful and quiet. I will never leave you, my Love.
Blissful and melancholy. Radiant and cursed. Sensual and familiar. Rough and blessed. Vibrant and smooth. I embrace your duality and all the space in between.
Strike at the soul and be consumed within these flames.
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