Once upon a time I was someone’s Baby Girl. I’ve been thinking that someday I might be again…even for a moment.
Where I am tonight
Posted on March 31, 2011, in BDSM/Kink and tagged D/s, photos, wishes. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.
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I’m tired of making myself smaller in order to survive as a professional woman. We often have to fight for the room to speak and be taken seriously. It can take months and years of careful career cultivation for us to be recognized as experts in our field. It takes a lot of passive voice, humble deference, “well, I might be wrong but I think...”, and careful balancing to even get a seat at the table; it takes a lot more professional perfection, personal sacrifice and subtle persistence to be found worthy of being believed when we speak up. I’m honestly tired of making myself small to suit small minded people. No more. I will take up however much room I need to get the job done. I will not be embarrassed to speak the truth of the opinions that have been informed by my years of experience, training and knowledge. I refuse to let anyone steamroll me or underestimate me unless it serves my purpose to do so. No more people pleasing or performing for the acceptance of others. I have worked hard for this and deserve the same respect as anyone else. #HereComestheQueen #QueenVibes #fearlesswomenIt’s not easy to choose to take care of myself. It’s not easy to accept that I am deserving of care as well. But I have to honor the signs, the pains in my body and the distractions of my heart ♥️ I am making difficult choices, finally starting to let go outdated beliefs. The ones that kept me in a constant cycle of depletion and expendability in service to the divine purpose I’ve dedicated my life to. But I was slowly marching down a path of self-destruction all because I felt undeserving of preservation. So, I am making some choices about my career path, my health, how I share my love, how I can thrive on my life path - all of which must make room for me to be deserving of those successes and experiences. It’s hard to say that. Oh so hard to say that... but how can I ever achieve my #dreams if I don’t believe myself to be deserving of receiving them at all? So, in the plain vulnerability and silent pride of my heart, I am finally moving forward from a place of healing and hope to help create and experience a life of infinite value and preciously imperfect harmony.The me of 2009 vs the me of 2018. I would never have thought my life could bring me to this point. I feel healthier than I did when took that first photo. Healthier mentally and physically. I respect everything that the me of the past went through. But I was struggling so much then...now I am manifesting, moving forward with my life and my dreams. I’m not free from the anxiety and struggle, but they don’t control me the way they once did. Thank you, past Janet, for all you went through, all you endured to give me the path I can on now. I love you/me 💖Tonight it’s @pikespeakbeer and their Devils Head Red Ale. I drink out of a small glass so I don’t know how many I’ve had. Warrior just keeps refilling it randomly, which is wonderful because I love this. #coloradogirl #coloradobrewThese socks are so warm and comfy but had the added benefit of some serious hotness too. 😏#ColoradoGold #coloradogirl #peaktopeakhighwayA Loose Woman Speaks
You know me. You always find me at the crossroads. Smoldering sweetness. Transient memory. Dark benevolence.
I have burned with you in the fires; I have resurrected you from the despair. I've held your hand in the depths of your darkness. I've given you light to lift you. I've been here each time you've prayed out loud or cried silently.
Sweet and bold. Powerful and quiet. I will never leave you, my Love.
Blissful and melancholy. Radiant and cursed. Sensual and familiar. Rough and blessed. Vibrant and smooth. I embrace your duality and all the space in between.
Strike at the soul and be consumed within these flames.
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