I have been public speaking since I was in 4th grade. I had just come home from Space Camp in Huntsville, Ala., and my school principal made my absence conditional on giving a presentation about my trip after I came back. I don’t remember much about it, only that it went well enough that they wanted me to go to the middle school and a few other local elementary schools to share my story.
And that’s what I’ve been doing ever since – sharing my impossible story – trying to teach through my lived experience. Perhaps, that’s why I was always so defensive of using anecdotal evidence and testimonials in my public policy work. I saw the point of data, but I also saw the value of the intuitive and abstract lessons that exist between and beyond the data. The entire reason why I do this work, why I share my story, and why I value storytelling in general (especially sci-fi/fantasy/historical fiction) is that I believe in the power of storytelling to give us a new perspective, a better-informed framework on which to base our decisions. I firmly believe that in sharing our stories, we learn deep truths from the connections between us. I model the transparency I hope to make a reality for others.
No one gets through this life without the world whispering doubt into our ears. I heard whispers that made me paranoid about my intelligence, doubting my abilities, second-guessing every word choice until I was spending an hour drafting a simple answer to an email. I started obsessing over preparing for every single possible objection in a presentation until my content was so heavy that people wouldn’t be able to walk away with anything useful.
Doubting my own talents, the insecurity crept in faster than I expected. I was comparing myself to others, letting my failures stack up against me without ever taking the time to acknowledge all my successes. I have a talent and a passion for teaching, in particular, because I want my classes to be connective, healing, and especially enlightening. So why was I comparing myself to presenters who were commercially superficial? Or spiritually deceptive? Why was I aspiring to do my presentations like those people?
We are entering a time of radical honesty with ourselves and the world around us. We have to be clear about our own motivations, our own weaknesses, but also all the places where we chose our highest selves over the tempting paths of ruin. And so that means too that I have to be honest with myself and trust my instincts as a presenter: No one taught me how to do this, I learned how all by myself, and thus, I’ve earned the right to be different in how I approach audiences, different in how I speak as a presenter. Because not only do I want people to walk away from my talks inspired, having felt seen and heard, my deepest wish is that they will walk away with some of the embers of my starry depths and they will use it to spark their own light. I want them to take the seed of my passionate love for humanity and let it unravel their hard iron walls so they see themselves as I see them: cherished expressions of our shared oneness.
This past week I taught Tarot for Personal Insight – the first of what I hope will be many tarot courses, helping people see it through the same Jungian lens that I do. When I found myself falling down the same overthinking holes, preparing myself as if I was teaching a room full of attorneys, I decided to let go and just speak from the heart. Because the times that I truly shine are the times I’m not reading from a script or prepared outline, but the times I am just present with people who are willing to connect and try out my sparkly lens of love for a bit.
The energies of completion are swirling around us this week. We’re being given permission to close certain chapters in our lives. We can stop beating ourselves up with capitalistic expectations, serving someone else’s bottom line. We need to stop succumbing to forces that throw us into misalignment with our lived experience and heartfelt truth. We need to stop looking for permission to be “good enough”. That chapter is coming to a close – fast.
This week, the Light Seer’s tarot is sharing a similar message with the opening card of the Queen of Pentacles. She is the healer, the self-possessed soul who has learned that in showing up as she is, all her dreams are available – which has definitely matched up with the energy I’ve been feeling since the last full moon. Now is the time for us to release those old fears about whether our gifts and talents are “good enough” to shine. We just need to own up to the power of our own light and just shine.
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Where we are this week
Queen of Pentacles
The Queen sits upon her throne confident and secure with who she is. She closes her eyes because she can trust her other sense to alert her to danger before it ever presents itself. She stands for the self-possessed ownership over our lives. She can manifest easily because she sees that our material life is based around energy – we get what we give. And our giving is not complete until we have been energetically compensated for our time, talent or treasure. And sometimes that compensation comes in the form of rest, pleasure, and luxurious self-care. She has confidence in her own body and refuses to compare or demean anyone else’s. She rules knowing that we are all just perfectly beautiful fragments of the whole – the oneness that can be found in her healing light.
Finding our inner confidence and security.
Messages from our Guides
Five of Pentacles (R)
We have the keys to our own salvation. We don’t have to be on the outside looking in anymore. We can combine forces with those who understand our story to generate new communities of prosperity. But we won’t find them if we keep huddling in the corner waiting for a savior. Opportunities don’t magically drop in our laps just because we’ve announced how miserable we are. And they definitely don’t show up if we make everyone else around us miserable with our self-pity. We must pick ourselves up and get back out there to try again. When we release the scarcity mindset, we no longer operate with jealous assumptions that scorn others’ good fortune. Instead, we start to see that perhaps sitting around and feeling sorry for ourselves, overthinking the solution to our problems is exactly what is keeping us stuck.
The pity party is over.
Messages from Lady Gaia
Ten of Swords (R)
We are resisting the inevitable realization: that we are soon reaching the point of no return as a society sooner than any of us want to admit. I mean you can’t get more desolate and isolated than this card depicting a woman walking through the arid, monochromatic territory. But we can turn the corner of hardship in our own lives, letting go of the “poor me” attention-seeking of the prior card. Those individualistic grievances distract us from resolving our collective problems. And the more each of us does this in our lives, the more we signal to the world around that us that we’re ready to glow up, leaving our greed and revenge fantasies behind so we can bind our fates together with a new vision. But first, we need to stop denying the obvious.
Denial doesn’t make it hurt less.
Messages from our Ancestors
The Devil (Reversed)
Believe it or not, this is a ‘hallelujah’ from the ancestors and ascended elders. They are cheering us on because we have finally seen thru the smoke and mirrors, the illusions of a world hell-bent on stealing our power from us. We have seen through the temptations of the easy path and soundly rejected the “easy way” of our old selves. Yes, the road might be difficult, but we’ve passed a significant test in our own ascension. However, that knowledge cannot exist without tearing apart the very fabric of the structures that once kept us obedient to our temptations. We know the road might be difficult, but it will at least be honest and offer us a real chance to liberate ourselves from the old illusions.
Breaking past the smoke & mirrors of temptation.
Messages from our Future Selves
Ten of Cups
All of this is because dreams do actually come true. We will find the people we belong with, our clans of heart who call one another family and see the potential and light of love together. This is our destiny. Oneness, belonging, and love that transcends time are all available to us. The path we are on right now, the chapters that come after the ones we are closing now promise to be abundant with love, support, and comfort. It might not be immediate, but it is where our story is headed. We will find it was all worth the effort we put in today to break free of the old and start a new chapter of our lives defined by our open transparency and openness to love.
It is worth the wait.
Message from Mother Mary
The Magician is a powerful signal that we have the energy, skill, and wisdom within us to master our lives and hone the gifts of our lineage. Tapping into our creative, manifesting energies is essential right now and will help us bridge the gap between illusions of the past and promised fulfillment of the future. The magic has been unlocked and is available to us right now – it just needs the practice to be used in a way that supports both our desires and the bigger picture. Mary reminds us that we are powerful but still have a responsibility to use our magic with only the best motivations and the clearest of intentions.
With great power…great responsibility.
Undercurrents & Final advice
Nine of Cups
Delivery incoming: subtle blessings.
Total transparency and authenticity.
In the undercurrent this week, we are assured that our wishes are being fulfilled, some of them delivered subtly under the surface right under our noses. Truly, all that we have asked for us arriving in ways we couldn’t ever imagine. Impossible connections, career opportunities, we are finding our light never depended on anyone else, just our own belief in ourselves. Once we let go of self-pity and scarcity, we open ourselves to a new level of fulfillment we never thought was possible.
Total transparency and authenticity. Every time I see the judgment card the first thing that comes to mind is “Will we finally choose to find ourselves worthy?” So much of my life was spent believing I was unworthy of whatever impossible dream popped into my head. I spent so much time talking myself out of pursuing the very things I needed to do to be successful that I only saw my failures. But with the Judgment card, we have to not only face our failures but our overwhelming successes too. Are we ready to stand up and be counted, to release our old selves so we may inhabit the new? Now is the time for radical self-honesty and to show up in the world with transparency and true authenticity. Our time is now.
As the energies of completion swirl around us, pulling us through portals to new ways of being, may we rediscover the courage of our self-worth. May we boldly take up space, speak our truths and honor our collective expansion in ways that disrupt hierarchies of illusory power. May we each have the audacity to close the chapter for good and move into our true and real selves.
I am with you always in love 💖
So may it be.
Tarot for Transformation
“We can predict the future, when we know how the present moment evolved from the past.”Carl Jung
What you can expect
Come learn how to use tarot as an emotional mirror🪞a time-traveling companion⌚ and a loving guide for the present 😍 in this monthly 90 min workshop ✨
Starting in August, join us on the 4th Tuesday of the month for this drop-in, virtual class.
We’ll start with analyzing a few cards together to warm up our intuitive muscles 🏋️♀️ before exploring some common themes and practicing interpreting cards through new spreads each month.
The class is limited to 20 participants.
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