One thing we often don’t discuss is how healing doesn’t always mean that were walking around in rainbows and sunshine afterward. Healing often leads to a host of other consequences. It’s dirty, it’s ugly, and it almost certainly never happens on our timeline. Likewise, when we’re healing, we end up uncovering even more things that need to be addressed. There is almost a disincentive to continue because we’re still so exhausted from the last go around – “now you want me to do even more?” 😟

Likewise, our healing often means that those who once relied on our smallness, our guilt, and our neuroses are now left exposed. The indecision and insecurity they used as a cover is no longer available. So, it’s no wonder that healing often comes with the attendant consequences of dominoes falling all around us. We see relationships begin to crumble Friendships start to drift into insult and injury. We find we can no longer tolerate people who were invested in our inferiority. And damn, that realization hurts.

Yet, there is value to the pain of these natural and foreseeable consequences of our healing. We know it will unearth all the ways in which we made ourselves blind to the injustices and empty comforts we once immersed ourselves in. When we recognize our own trauma, we realize how we were denying it in others – for accepting someone’s story, necessarily means we have to explain why we aren’t accepting our own. We know that this pain, that enlightenment of perspective creates an entry point to experience a deeper experience of compassion. Once we see the illusions, it is so much easier to understand how easily others are still enchanted by them.

It is probably one of the biggest reasons why people avoid shattering those illusions. The pain of that growth is nothing to romanticize for once you peel back one layer you start to all how many there really are. And the human brain can only process so much, so fast. And one of the lessons of our own healing is to simultaneously recognize how readily we judge or condemn others for not being as “ascended” as we are. “Slow your roll, Janet,” the universe says. Our willingness to dismiss others as weak, stupid, insane, or hateful, just reveals even deeper illusions of superiority, more healing work we need to do. For if we cannot have compassion for those just starting down a road we have already walked, then what use was that healing journey in the first place?

For example, some of the illusions we still have to collectively wrestle with is the cognitive dissonance required for both abundance and lack to exist simultaneously in our world. On the one hand, we collectively acquiesce to accepting a reality that allows people to starve as a matter of policy; yet, we also participate in food choices that significantly waste food and contribute to both that lack and ongoing environmental damage.

According to ReFED over 300 million pounds of food went un-eaten on Thanksgiving Day alone. Yet how many people wen turned away at food banks. How much does our regulatory scheme add new barriers to food access and food sovereignty? How do the diet industry opportunists and their messaging contribute to food waste? How many pounds of food will be wasted between now and January because some labeled as “good” rots in the fridge untouched, while food labeled as “bad” gets tossed out in a fit of condemnation to show allegiance to a weight loss goal? When did food stop becoming medicine for the soul of a community and instead became a commodity that must be earned with exercised restraint?

It may take generations to heal the wounds inflicted by these illusions, but we cannot let the fear of failure or the difficulty of the solution darken our faith. It may feel like a constancy of change, but growth always is. Just like when we were babies, we fell the first few times we tried to walk, it takes some time to adjust to these new realities to feel the ground stable under our feet. Until we prove to ourselves, not the universe, that we are past these patterns and illusions, we’ll continue seeing them in our field – an opportunity to explore the potency of our self-work.

And sometimes we succumb to that influence; we all do. Sometimes, we give in to the past lovers, the old overworking patterns, because there’s still more to uncover there. And guess what? If that happens to “ascended” people like you, then it happens to those we label as “stuck in their trauma” too. Take it from this straight-A student with undiagnosed ADHD the problem isn’t laziness or not trying hard enough, sometimes, that’s just how the brain works. There is nothing to judge for it is no weakness for a new skill or realization to take a few tries. A consequence of our healing is the acceptance that we all grow at our own rates and each has our own challenges. None of us is better than anyone else.

This week’s reading has so many reversals, l almost recast the spread, but the disjointed wisdom is presented without sugarcoating, Mother Earth in particular has something to say about the above food waste. Likewise, our future selves this week warn us of celebrating false victories. While we are eager to make the practical changes we want, we need to find an equilibrium among all of these consequences rippling out around us.

Blessing

As we approach the dark months, may we use this time wisely to take stock to support our healing. We invoke the truth-tellers and rely on the change-makers to show us how we still cling to the shadows within. We ask for a blessing of compassion as we still feel reverberations of change happening throughout our lives. May we have faith in our transformative journey and create stability around us with the empathetic deconstruction of the illusions and dissonance that no longer serve us or humanity.

So may it be. I am with you always in love 💖

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Undercurrents & Final advice

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